Saturday, October 31, 2009

You Must Wait?

I am probably the worlds most impatient person. I hate waiting for anything...let alone the big things. I want what i want when i want it!! But that was then. I am really learning the beauty of patience. Need to rely on Gods time and not my own. Ecc 3:11 " He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from beginning to end" Most people when they use this verse to talk about waiting they once say the first part. God has made everything beautiful in its time but then end of that verse makes me see that i wont understand Gods plan most of the time. I may not understand why i wait for something, why i lose someone, or why i am where I am but i can trust that the sovereign God already knows that answer.

God has really been showing my how much he is in control. "commit your way to the Lord, trust in him, and he will act" Psalm 37:5 Trusting in the Lord to act! but once i give it to the Lord do i need to still worry about it? " the young lions suffer and want but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing" Psalm 34:10 I dont need to worry cuz i lack no good thing. i have every good thing i need and if i dont have something then its cuz its not good for me at this time. A desire for a relationship, marriage, family, a job, a degree, or even a new car, if you dont have them now dont worry bout it but commit your way to the Lord and know that he will supply all your needs.

I think as a girl this is hard for me. but im learning that everything needs to be in His time and waiting should be exciting cuz i wanna see how it plays out! and when it comes to love or relationships im reminded even more of His time. entering into a relationship or dating someone who is not who God has for is not worth it cuz im a daughter of the living God and i deserve the best! :D


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Content in the Message

I was having a conversation with a friend a while back and we were talking about not getting anything from messages or not really getting anything form quiet time. we were talking as if it was normal to walk away from the word and not learn a thing. i was reading today and was reminded that if you walk away from listening to the word or reading it and we walk away with nothing then maybe i went in not expecting anything? "Guard your steps when you go to the house of God, to draw near to listen is better.." Ecc 5:1. this verse convicted me. am i going before the Lord saying "God i am here to listen, speak to me" i know that i if i were to go into any message or my quiet time that God will speak to me no matter who is teaching or what is on my heart. his word is living and active and it never comes back to empty but will accomplish his purpose. if the reason we have messages and devotion time is to learn more about out God then he will show us more about him, it will add to our joy. we wont walk away unchanged

God help me to always be prepared to hear from you. you have not told me that you will only speak to me every once in while but that if i am your sheep i will know you voice, that my delight will be in the law of the Lord if i meditate on it day and night,that your word are sweeter than honey and the honeycomb. Father let my soul be consumed with longing for you word at all times.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Trusting in my faithful Father and Savior

God has a funny way of bringing what he has been showing me up over and over again.

For example....being Faithful. I have always thought of myself as a faithful person. i do what i need to do. i serve in ministry and am never late ;) but where i lacked faithfulness was in my follow through of what God wanted. Im like Jonah at times where id rather run then do....

school, work, church, family, friends, etc. i try and handle everything but in the end i get tried and lazy. when that happens i don't wanna do a thing. so everything suffers. i made commitments to each of these areas so i have to be faithful to them. Then God brings up a great point, everything i make commitments to have all been MY choice but where in the midst of decisions did i ask what HE wanted? so i did and with me asking i said that i would be faithful in whatever happens...

God showed me that school was not where he wanted me. my desire has always been to be a stay at home mom and wife(whenever that day comes), even in my reasons for school, it had nothing to do with me but how it would work if i had to work and have kids. this was hard for me because everyone has always have to go to college! you have to have a fall back! what if? whats if? then someone super smart and amazing said what if? those things happened, does that change Gods provision? it was the smartest and most convicting thing i had heard. God was giving me a chance to trust him.( i was kinda freakin out tho) lol

Then God reminded me of his faithfulness. He has never let me down, never led me down the wrong path,and has always provided. He was asking me to trust that he would continue doing what hes always done. so i acted and waited to see what would happen lol

so i did it. i jumped an was waiting to see where i would land. you know how people say when a door closes another opens. well it did! 2009 High School Summer camp came and God showed me the blessing i was missing out on. ministry and serving is where he wanted me the whole time.i had the desire to be used more but now what? i wasnt sure where to go or what to do about it. i just knew i wanted to be used. then doors began to open for me to be more involved and to be used even more.HE GIVES AND TAKES AWAY. so far the choice to trust him has been a blessing and it just keeps coming. i get people who think im making a bad choice, or am just being lazy, or whatever. but for the first time in my life i am not doing what "feels" right or what they want but im trusting in the Lord and his plan. ITS STINKIN COOL. yeah im still at a part time job and have bills that my grandpa is helping pay but God is faithful and keeps reminding me of his faithfulness. Im sitting back and watching what he does!